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| Three of the new babies in Chambrun! |
Today I'm sharing a blog that my friend Katherine (we live and serve together at NVM) wrote. There are so many times when people ask me questions that I have no answers for. This is just a glimpse into what clinic was like this last week. I feel so blessed to serve with Katherine and Leslee (another nurse that works at NVM)!
Written by: Katherine Clancey (
www.katherineclancey.wordpress.com)
I’ve heard people say things like, “Now I’m socially awkward. I feel
like I can’t relate to people and I never know what to say when they ask
about Haiti.” “Why are you so angry (sad/depressed/upset/doubting)? My
friends have gone on mission trips and they came back excited and happy
and feeling really close to God.” “Yeah she liked her trip there but it
was just a trip, she’s not going to move there or anything.” I just got
back from a quick trip to the States. It was a wonderful time of rest. I
drank a lot of Starbucks, I watched a lot of HGTV, and ate more than my
fair share of fresh fruits and vegetables. I spent a lot of time with
loved ones and I enjoyed the freedom of being able to go anywhere, at
anytime, sometimes even by myself. By the time I got back to where I
live in Haiti, it was late Sunday night. A full week was ahead of me.
Let me walk you through it.
Monday: My ears spent the day readjusting to Creole.
Every time someone spoke to me, my brain kept shutting down because
it’d had the luxury of thinking and speaking one language for a few
days. So, I spent all day forcing myself to calm down and listen. Ah,
the joys of continually learning a second language ☺ We went down to the
village that afternoon and a few minutes after we had arrived, a woman
came over and told us someone was sick. When she pointed over to our
friend’s house, we were confused. Brooke, Leslee, and I entered her
home. She sat on the ground holding her baby. After my eyes had adjusted
to the dim lighting, I saw that her once plumpy and thriving son was
now severely malnourished. The three of us sat down on the dirt floor
next to her and listened. She explained she didn’t know what was wrong,
he had been crying a lot and someone had told her to stop breastfeeding
him because her milk was no longer good. While she was talking, the baby
reached his twig like arms up and clasped his fingers together. His
eyes, which looked abnormally large on his sunken face, traced this
movement like any normal 7-month-old would do. As I sat there on the
floor with this woman, covered in dirt, searching for what to say
because I didn’t know why either I thought, “Yesterday I was drinking
Starbucks. How do you ever explain moments like this to people?”
Tuesday: Our friend brought her malnourished son
through our clinic and we gave them supplies to go to the hospital
immediately. We told her she needed to speak strongly to the hospital
workers, to fight for her son to be admitted. There are too many sick
children and not enough resources; hospitals can’t admit every sick and
malnourished child that comes by. As soon as she left we went to take
care of a young woman whose family members had carried her in. A year
ago she’d started having seizures multiple times a day and was now
blind, deaf, and unable to walk because of them. I watched as she cried
out in confusion, her family members helping her go to the bathroom and
cleaning her up. We gave her IV fluids and we gave her seizure
medication. The brain damage that had already been done was permanent.
They took her back home.
Wednesday: Several of the women have been pregnant
down in the village, and that afternoon we were going to meet another
new baby. I felt privileged to enter our friend’s house and see her
smiling and holding her baby. I gave her a kiss and she said her stomach
hurt but otherwise she felt ok. Her toddler daughter came walking in
and pushed through the crowd of kids to get closest to her new brother. I
asked the girl if she knew who the heck this baby was her mom was
holding, and both her mother and I giggled when the little girl nodded.
But, as we walked back that day I couldn’t help but confess to Brooke
and Leslee what’d I been thinking for a few months. I watched each of
these women as they were pregnant, watched their bellies get bigger with
life, and watched them hold their newborn babies. In my mind, I kept
counting, “One, two, three, four babies…and statistics say…so which one
will die?” They nodded in agreement that this was a frightening yet true
thought. I silently prayed that God would not let these babies become
statistics.
Thursday: I handed a patient’s chart to Brooke and
then turned around to see a woman half-dragging her husband into the
clinic. As I started my physical assessment, his wife told me that 4
days ago he’d had a really high fever and then a seizure. After the
seizure his muscles had been contracted like this with immense pain. All
of the nurses were thinking the same thing, “Why did they come here?
That’s not just a cold or an infection, they should’ve saved their money
and gone to the hospital.” After the doctor referred them to a
hospital, Brooke talked to the wife about how important it was they go.
The wife told her that on Sunday after his seizure, she knew he was
really sick but they didn’t have money to go to the doctor. So they
waited 4 days until they finally had enough money. We were the closest
clinic so they came to us. The woman’s eyes were wide the whole time
Brooke explained that her husband and the father of her children was
severely sick. Their ride to the hospital came and out he was carried.
After he left, we admitted a 13-month-old child into our malnutrition
program that was so malnourished she could barely hold her head up.
Friday: “The baby died.” We had just triaged the
first patient. “What? Which baby?” “The newborn we visited Wednesday.”
Statistics were right again. When we went to visit our friend for the
second time in two days, we found her sitting in her sister’s house.
There were three other babies in the house, ranging from one month to
four months old. It highlighted the injustice of her situation for me as
she sat there holding another woman’s new infant. I don’t know why
infant mortality is so high in the village. And I don’t know how to tell
someone that Jesus loves her when she doesn’t believe in Him and she
has just buried her child. “Two weeks ago I was at a restaurant watching
a basketball game…” I thought to myself as we walked home exhausted
from the week.
So, I still don’t know. I don’t know how to “fit in again” or answer
questions well. I don’t know how to explain to people that you can see
God very clearly some days and other days seem to scream, “There is no
God!” I can’t explain how deeply blessed and how heavily burdened I am
from living here. I ended my week by reading this…
“Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will
reveal to us later. For all creation is waiting eagerly for that future
day when God will reveal who his children really are. Against its will,
all creation was subjected to God’s curse. But with eager hope, the
creation looks forward to the day when it will join God’s children in
glorious freedom from death and decay. For we know that all creation has
been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present
time. We believers also groan, even though we have the Holy Spirit
within us as a foretaste of future glory, for we long for our bodies to
be released from sin and suffering. And we know that God causes
everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are
called according to his purpose for them.” -Romans 8
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| They aren't quiet ready to sit up, but that doesn't stop us! |
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| Four new kids we've admitted into our malnutrition program. |
